am i emotionally mature enough?

I’ve been wondering, am i emotionally mature enough in my age? when you can solve your problem, think clearly everytime you feel under pressure, being patience, withholding emotions, accepting critics, giving other people grown-up advices and opinions and they take a deal with it, take responsibility of what you did…. could i call ‘em ‘mature actions’? i guess not.

like Roger Allen said on his website (do you know him? no? oh yeah me too, i just found his website on Google, though) he defines,

“Emotional maturity as the ability to make good, positive, healthy choices during the challenges of life.”

Emotional Immaturity

• Reactive (Life happens to me)
• Act out emotions
• Governed by habit
• Come from fear/scarcity
• “Have to” motivation
• Getting (self-centered)
• Seek security and self-protection
• Avoid failure, rejection, discomfort
• Separation/alienation from others
• Live in the past/future

 Emotional Maturity

• Proactive (I make choices)
• Act on emotions
• Governed by vision/purpose
• Come from love/abundance
• “Choose to” motivation
• Giving (other-centered)
• Step outside comfort zone
• Seek growth
• Unity/goodwill with others
• Live in the present

so how do you defines 'mature',  then?

welcome to the 'entertainment' industry!

hello folks.

never been visiting my blog even for awhile, since 2 months ago. it was all because of flood of tasks and assignments. and now, i'm writing here, because this term is already done (let's say together, THANKS GOD!!!).

i wanna pour my feeling here, yeah i use 'pour' because so much feeling i had and i can't count to it. just like rain. i feel like i'm hardly any money throughout the year. i meant it because my task is not only a task that you could done it with laptop and Google, (and you let your parents pay the electricity bills) but with cameras, tripods, lightings, and ideas.  

makes tv programs! that was the point of my task.

just so you know baby, my outcome is waaay bigger than the income. however, i could say that i love to do my task. but i can't stand with the after-effect. but this is one of the consequences. and i'm brave enough to take it :)

*golly, my english turns bad. desperately need some books with english text!!!

quotes

Sometimes in life, there really are bonds formed that can never be broken. 


Sometimes you really can find that one person who will stand by you no matter what; maybe you’ll find it in a spouse and celebrate it with your dream wedding, but there is also the chance that the one person you can count on for a lifetime, the one person who knows you, sometimes better than yourself, is the same person standing beside you all along.

!!!!!!!!!!!

bener-bener ya hari ini. bener-bener mancing emosi banget! semuanya ngeseliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn FUCK

how are me? (not) fine, thank you!

entah kenapa bisa dibilang hari ini apes banget. pertama, gue lupa bawa kartu ujian. kedua, gue lupa bawa catetan. ketiga, gue telat banget nyampe kampus, untung msh boleh ikut ujian. keempat, ada aja yg bikin kesel. kelima, PMS.

campur aduk banget mood gue hari ini. be-ran-ta-kan. saking keselnya sampe nangis tadi :_) emang nyiksa banget sih PMS ini. apa-apa maunya ngomel, apa-apa salah aja keliatannya, apa-apa mancing emosi. hhh capek loh sebenernya..... nah makanya buat para cowok-cowok diluar sana yg bingung gimana cara ngadepin pacarnya PMS, gampang.
1. turutin aja maunya apa
2. kalo di jutekin jangan malah jutek balik atau bahkan nyuekin. krn sebenernya pas lg gitu, justru makin manja dan minta diperhatiin
3. yaaah yg ini sih udah jadi saran kunci. SABAR ;)
PMS tiap cewek emang beda-beda, ada yang seminggu full ada yang dua minggu sebelum ada juga yg sebelum dan sesudah dapet. kalo pas pacaran aja udah ngeluh tiap bulan 'capek' sama
'bonus' tiap bulannya, gimana pas udah nikah nanti?

soal PMS selesai.

lanjut masalah lain. hmm

gue pengen tau apa sih yg biasanya lo lakuin kalo lo lagi bener-bener gak ada kerjaan dan gak bisa ngandelin orang t-e-r-d-e-k-a-t lo buat nemenin ngobrol di telfon atau lewat chatting? gue lg bener-bener butuh saran soal itu. gue berusaha cari kegiatan lain. dan oke, gue nemu. tapi.....ya tetep kepikiran. disini gue makin bisa ngerasain kalo cowok sama cewek bener-bener beda banget. ketara banget bedanya.
cewek, sesibuk apapun dia, pasti sebisa mungkin basa-basi sama cowoknya. sesibuk apapun , pasti nyempetin ngabarin. sesibuk apapun, masih keingetan. sedangkan cowok.....jelas kebalikannya. serba salah juga kalo mau kesel tapi ya gimana yaaa :/

pengen aja gitu ada di posisi cowok. sekali. pengen ngerasain sifat cueknya mereka. sayang, gue gak bisa cuek kalo soal ini :s eh, tapi kayaknya hari ini gue berhasil.

lanjut.

blogging emang paling enak kalo mood lg reckless gini. bisa ngomel sesuka hati, bisa cerita apapun yang lo gak bisa ceritain ke orang (lebih baik di private ya blognya ;) beneran bisa ngelegain hati, pikiran, beban.....bahkan lo bisa nangis sesenggukan di depan monitor dan cuma keyboard, mouse, pc, speaker, yg jadi saksi bisu lo. super . gak ada yg bisa ngalahin leganya. oke, gue galau sendirian jadinya. shit.

'pinter' (I)

Dialog konyol ini terjadi pas gue lg mampir ke rumah Fahmi buat nonton dvd. gue berniat nonton film 4bia dan dia mutusin buat tidur bentar di sofa samping gue.

Gue: "yang, ini suaranya kenceng banget, aku mau kecilin aja deh, masa aku nonton horor sendirian, kamunya malah tidur..."
Fahmi: "yaudah kecilin aja.."
Gue: "iya tp pake yg mana remotenyaaaaaa? pake ini gak ngefek" (gue ngecilin tv pake remote indovision. mulai agak panik krn visualnya udah gelap-gelap gimanaaaa gitu)
Fahmi: "pake remote tv yaaaang.."
Gue: "oiya, remote tv yang mana?" (nyari-nyari sambil bolak balik badan)
Fahmi: "remote tvnya rusak......."

KRIK.

(¬_¬)

"apa yg lo inginkan sekarang?"

Daripada bengong dan uring-uringan gak jelas, mending ngepost di blog B)

kalo ditanya sama orang apa yg gue inginkan sekarang, gue akan jawab: umur yg panjang & kesehatan. kenapa? menurut gue, dengan tubuh, dan pikiran yg sehat, gue bisa ngelakuin hal yg gue suka. dan dengan umur yg panjang, gue bisa ngelakuin hal yg gue suka itu tanpa ada batasan waktu. lagipula, gue masih muda. masih banyak obsesi yg belum terpenuhi  hehehehe.

salah limanya (bukan salah satunya lagi) adalah:
1. Keliling eropa. i heart their cultures, views, and to me, land my feets in europe's continent is unpredictably amazing. and europe is my destination to spend my honeymoon days. amin.
2. Ke Emirates Stadium. hal pertama yg terjadi begitu nyampe di stadiumnya Arsenal, nangis. itu pasti.
3. Beliin nyokap-bokap rumah masa tua. family is everything. gue pengen bisa jadi seseorang yg dibutuhkan mereka nantinya. gak bakal bisa terbalaskan sih apa yg udah mereka kasih ke gue selama gue hidup sampe usia 20 tahun ini, tapi i want to be their 'something'.
4. Nonton konser Blink 182. and last but not least,
5. Punya keluarga kecil yg harmonis. sebenernya kalo ini jatohnya bukan ke obsesi sih, toh suatu hari gue akan menikah. tapi, keharmonisan dalam keluarga itulah yg menjadi obsesi gue.

berat ya? hehehe. tapi gue yakin bisa ngewujudin ini satu-satu atau hidup gue gak bakal tenang :p

well, well, well, tahun ini liburan kuliah gue cukup lama. almost hit 3 months. mom and dad asked me: "why don't you try to submit a cv to tante mila's company? biar kamu tau gimana rasanya cari uang." i thought, 'yeah, why not, i'll be fat like a pig in home doing nothing. and get the first salary? who don't want it?'. God gracious, my cousin offers me to be an admin at his office. without wearing an office outfit, with my cousins who still working there, i said yes.

it's going to be a little start and new experience :)